Leaving is scary, but will lift a huge weight from your shoulders. When you break things off, they may try to hoover you back in by crying, promising to change, or getting angry. Do not listen to their empty words, people like that never change. You might second guess yourself too, missing the good moments from before their true colors showed. But remember why you are leaving the constant put downs, not feeling heard, walking on eggshells. This is no way to live. Once the initial pain passes, you will feel like yourself again instead of just an extension of them. There will be sad days, but also happy days of freedom where you can focus on your passions and loved ones without constantly feeling stressed or worried about their next mood swing. Read more
Relationships with narcissists are addictive due to intermittent reinforcement, trauma bonding and dependence developed from erosion of boundaries over time. Even if intellectually understanding the abuse, actually disentangling psychologically and emotionally requires a no contact “detox” period. Maintaining no contact denies narcissistic supply sources their ability to continue exerting control, confusion and emotional pullbacks that spin the trauma cycle. It allows establishing new patterns independent of toxicity with space for perspective to form unclouded. Read more